Showing posts with label As Long as He Needs Me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label As Long as He Needs Me. Show all posts

May 24, 2010

An Interesting Review

This review was prepared by the fine people at 'Writers in the Sky Podcast and Blog.' It is very well thought out and I thought you might enjoy reading what others are saying about my book.

Title of Document: Book Review
Book Title: As Long As He Needs Me
Author: Mary Verdick
ISBN Number: 978-1-4327-2427-6
Publisher: OutskirtsPress.com
Genre and Target Market: fiction; romance; family
Publication Date: 2009
Book Length in Pages: 215

There are times when I want to dive into a completely fantastical novel that transports me to a life or a place that could never be my own. Maybe it’s a sci-fi adventure in which an alien life form threatens the existence of everyone on our planet. Or, it could be a historical piece that takes place in the royal courts of Victorian England. Sometimes books can provide that perfect escape that a reader needs from her everyday existence. However, other times I prefer to settle in with a story that is completely familiar, one that portrays the challenges and comforts that come with human relationships and exposes the emotional frailties that exist in all of us. As Long as He Needs Me, the new release by author Mary Verdick, beautifully fits into the latter category. This fictional work does not necessarily allow the reader to escape, but certainly provides an opportunity to be challenged with very real emotions.

As Long as He Needs Me tells the story of Kitty and Clem Johanssen, a couple that has just embarked upon a cruise to celebrate their thirty-fifth wedding anniversary. However, the ship does not even leave the port before events change the course of their vacation. Both husband and wife are forced to confront their own feelings of guilt, self-doubt, and loneliness. Along the way, Verdick does a beautiful job of slowly revealing details of the history of Johanssen’s lives through flashbacks and conversations. We learn about their children, their parents, and other relationships that all contributed to the current dynamic of the marital bond. I imagine every reader will be able to identify with at least one of the supporting characters in the novel, if not with the husband or wife directly, making the emotions all the more piercing and convicting. You cannot help but become invested in the success of Kitty and Clem’s marriage once their entire story is told.

One of the great strengths of Mary Verdick’s writing throughout As Long as He Needs Me is her ability to capture a genuine sense of human frailty. She does this without creating a sense of pity for her characters and without making them exaggerated in their weakness. Instead, Verdick illustrates the delicate nature of an intimate relationship that has weathered heartache, devastating losses, and old-fashioned jealousy all while being comprised of two unique individuals. No one is completely evil or saintly in As Long as He Needs Me. Just as the reader is about to condemn a character for a despicable act, a detail will be revealed to show the situation is more complex than originally assumed. When writing a story about human nature, that is about as realistic as it comes!

As Long as He Needs Me is a book that I read from cover to cover in one day. This is not because the writing was overly simple, but because Mary Verdick managed to create characters in which I took an interest. I wanted to see the story of the Johanssen’s relationship through to the end. And, along the way, I took the time to do some self-reflection on the weaknesses that exist in my own relationships and the way in which I may be contributing to the current dynamic. If you enjoy works of fiction that force you to examine some personal truths, As Long as He Needs Me is a book for you.

May 17, 2010

Chapter I - As Long As He Needs Me

Kate drove them to the station and now as she and Clem put the bags down on the platform, Kitty looked around for someplace for them to sit. But the only outside bench at the little station was already occupied by three men, shabby and unkempt. Definitely not commuters. Probably addicts waiting for the soup kitchen up the street to open so they can cadge a free meal, Kitty thought, and immediately chastised herself for being so uncharitable. Why do you always think everyone down on their luck has to be an addict? she asked herself. Just because Bebe, your own daughter, couldn’t stay away from the stuff—oh, stop it. STOP IT!

To make up for her lack of compassion, she smiled at the men, her warm, all-encompassing smile that said much plainer than words they were all human beings, and that these particular human beings were just fine as they were. She was rewarded with various flickers of interest. Two of the men lifted their heads and glanced shyly in her direction, while the youngest one, the one nearest to her on the end of the bench, actually smiled back.

“You and your sister going to the big city to do some shopping?” he asked, nodding in Kate’s direction. “Taking old Dad along,” he glanced at Clem, “to pay the bills?”

“Not exactly,” Kitty laughed, and putting out an arm drew Kate close. “This gal is my daughter, not my sister. And as for ‘old dad’ there—”

“He’s her husband and my father,” Kate informed him. “My folks are catching a cruise ship in New York that will take them up the Saint Lawrence to Montreal. They’re celebrating their thirty-fifth wedding anniversary. How ‘bout that?”

“Thirty-five years?” the man exclaimed. “Nah!” He shook his head emphatically. “She ain’t been married no thirty-five years. Him maybe, but not her.”

“Yes, her,” Kate insisted. “My folks met at an anti-war rally during the Vietnam War. My mom was a freshman in college and my dad was about to be sent overseas so they eloped—”

“I’m sure these fellows aren’t interested in our personal history, Kate,” Clem interrupted. A tall, gray-haired man with a slight pot protruding under his well-tailored jacket, he took his wife and daughter each firmly by an arm and lost no time maneuvering them to the other end of the platform.

“Why do you two always feel the need to strike up a conversation with total strangers?” he asked as soon as they were out of earshot.

“Oh, darling,” Kitty sighed, “they look harmless enough.”

“Sure. They always do, until they knock you over the head,” Clem said. “You haven’t forgotten what happened to Jack, have you?”

“Please, Dad!” Kate said. “Give it a rest. If I have to hear one more time about how Jack faced down those two thugs I swear to goodness—”

“Not just faced them down,” Clem corrected her. “In case you’ve forgotten, young lady, he belted one of them in the jaw and gave the other one a kick in the groin that put him out of circulation for quite a while, I imagine.”

“And got a black eye and a wrenched knee for his pains.”

“But he kept his money.”

“Big deal,” Kate sniffed. “If you ask me, what Jack did was about the stupidest thing I ever heard. Suppose those jerks had a gun—or even a knife. Jack could have ended up dead and a lot of good his precious money would have done him then. Nope, it’s better to just give them what they want. Even the cops will tell you that.”

“You mean just knuckle under?”

“Yep.” Kate nodded. “Seriously, Dad, if anyone should jump you guys—of course they won’t, but just in case—no heroics, hear? Promise me you won’t be brave.”

“But, honey, your daddy couldn’t help being brave,” Kitty said. “It’s in his genes or something. Remember what I told you, how he knocked out all those bunkers in Vietnam and saved his whole platoon—”

“For heaven’s sake, Kitty,” Clem protested. “That was a lifetime ago.”

“I don’t care.” Standing on tiptoes, she bussed him on the cheek. “You’re still my hero.”

“Mine, too, Dad,” Kate said, bussing him on the other side. “Just be careful, huh?”

You too, sweetie, Kitty thought, smiling at her youngest daughter. What a truly lovely looking girl she was. In addition to the tawny-gold hair and legs that seemed to go on forever, Kate had a fineness of bone, a certain purity of expression that never failed to touch Kitty’s heart. She was much too good for that stupid stable she was wasting her time at—Stop it! There’s nothing you can do about it, so forget it. But it was hard keeping quiet, God, was it hard!

Suddenly there was a distraction—a whistle, then the rumble of the train approaching. People began streaming out of the station, lining up to board.

“Now, Kate,” Kitty said, “you won’t forget about picking us up a week from Sunday? We’re taking the train from Montreal, which doesn’t stop here, but gets into New Haven—”

“At 5:20 a.m.,” Kate wrinkled her nose. “Some hour!”

“Ghastly, I know, but we didn’t have a choice if we wanted this particular trip. I just hope it’s not too hard on your dad.”

“Now don’t you worry about me,” Clem said. As the train came to a stop, he put both arms around his daughter and hugged her close. “Good-bye, sweetheart. Thanks for the lift.”

“Anytime, Dad. Have a good trip.”

“Intend to try,” Clem said.

The conductor put down the steps. Clem tossed their overnight bags aboard and started to heft their two large suitcases, then paused. “Christ almighty, what’s in these things? Bricks?”

“Here, let me help,” Kitty said, reaching for a handle. But a stocky young woman, also waiting to board, took both bags and easily hoisted them aboard.

“Why—why, thanks,” Clem said. “Thanks very much.”

Kitty smiled at the young woman. “That was ever so kind of you.”

“Not at all, ma-am,” the young woman said. “Glad to be of service.”

Kitty turned back to Kate. “You see, there’re still some nice people around,” she said in a conspiratorial whisper.

Kate smiled. “Never doubted it, Mom. You have fun now and don’t worry about a thing. When you come back from the cruise, maybe, well I might have a little surprise for you.”

Kitty’s heart gave a leap. “Oh, Kate, does that mean…?”

“Look, I can’t go into it now. I shouldn’t have said anything, but we’ll see. Now get on the train before Dad has a fit.”
Kitty hugged her daughter close for a moment, then dashed up the steps ahead of Clem just as the conductor shouted the “All aboard.” They found seats near the front of the car as the train gave a jerk and started off. Through the window Kitty could see Kate waving and waved back until she was out of sight.

“Well, we made it,” she said. “Finally! Now all we have to do is relax and have a good time.”

“I won’t relax until we get on the ship,” Clem said. “We still have to go through that darn station, don’t forget.”

“Oh, Clem, we’ve been to Penn Station hundreds of times in the past and you never worried about it before.”

“I never thought they’d jump someone like Jack before.”

“Sweetie, that was a one-in-a-million thing. It won’t happen to us.”

“Don’t be too sure. I’d feel a lot better if you’d turn your diamond around.”

Kitty stared at him, puzzled. “Are you serious?”

“Darn right. No use asking for trouble.”

Kitty glanced down at her hand, at the really big diamond he’d given her after “the incident,” as he called it. His guilt offering, she privately thought. This new worry of his seemed ridiculous, but there was no point arguing, so she turned the ring around, hiding the stone, and changed the subject.

“Clem, you know what Kate told me just now? She may be quitting her job at the stable and enrolling in Yale Med after all.”

“She told you that?” He looked skeptical.

Kitty flushed. “Well, not in so many words. But she’s obviously been thinking about what I said, about how foolish it was to work at some fool stable, giving riding lessons to a bunch of kids, rather than pursuing a career with a real future.”
“She’s always loved horses, Kit.”

“I know. But all girls love horses at a certain stage in their lives. It’s just a case of arrested development with her, that’s all.”

“Is it? I wouldn’t be too sure.” Clem’s voice was curiously gentle. “I don’t know what’s caused it, but Kate’s looked happier these last few months than I’ve seen her look in ages. And as much as I’d like her to become a doctor, too, we can’t turn her into another Pritchard if she doesn’t want it.”

“I guess not,” Kitty said. She glanced down at her hands which, all of a sudden, were trembling uncontrollably in her lap. Quickly, she hid them in the folds of her skirt. “But she is Pritchy’s sister,” she added. “She’s got the same blood coursing through her veins and he never caused us a lick of worry.”

Clem lifted an eyebrow. “That’s open to debate, isn’t it? Anyway she’s also Bebe’s sister and you know what we went through with her.”

“You don’t have to remind me.”

“I’m not. Anyway Bebe seems to be turning things around, now that she’s got religion.”

“I almost liked her better before,” Kitty said, then flushed. “Oh, God,” she bit her lip, “I don’t mean that, not really.”

“Don’t see why not,” Clem said. “It’s damned exhausting, being saved all the time.” Reaching out he put an arm around her and drew her close. “Say, did I tell you how spiffy you look this morning, Mrs. J?”

She glanced down at the red knit suit she was wearing, accented with a perky black and white scarf. “What, this old thing?”

“I’ve always liked you in red. Those fellows on the platform back there couldn’t take their eyes off you.”

“The poor things were probably in need of a good meal.”

“Or a drink, most likely. But they still know a beautiful girl when they see one.”

“Kate is the beautiful girl in this family.”

“Kate’s mighty nice—but she doesn’t hold a candle to her ma.”

“You’re crazy, Clem Johanssen.”

“About you.” He drew her close and put his lips against her ear. “You’re more beautiful than the day we got married and I still want you just as much. What other guy can say that about a woman he’s been married to for thirty-five years?”
“Silly,” she said. “I think you’re going through a second childhood.”

She knew what he was doing of course—trying to distract her, keep her from thinking of Pritchard. And she decided to let him. She wasn’t going to let her own unhappiness spoil the trip for Clem. She cuddled closer against him, laid her head on his shoulder—the car was only half-filled—and in this relaxed mood they continued on to the city. With half her mind she listened to the porter calling out the stops: New Haven, Bridgeport, Stamford, Greenwich…, finally a disembodied voice came over the loudspeaker announcing the approach of Penn Station.

The train screeched to a stop and they got off. There wasn’t a Red Cap in sight but fortunately the larger bags were equipped with wheels, so with each of them picking up a strap, and the overnight bags slung over their shoulders, they started down the platform. It was kind of tricky getting the bags up the escalator, but once they’d accomplished that they were okay.
“Are you hungry?” Clem said when they paused in the lobby to catch their breath. “What do you say we have lunch here in the station. How’s that place look?” He gestured at a restaurant on the other side of the lobby.

“Fine,” Kitty said. “Although actually, I’m not too hungry. I wonder if I can get a salad in there.”

“I’d guarantee it,” Clem said.

And he was right. She had a delicious spinach salad and a glass of white wine. Clem ordered a roast beef sandwich and two very dry martinis, although he rarely drank in the middle of the day.

The bill came. It was a bit more than they’d expected and they debated whether to put it on a credit card or pay cash. Clem opted for cash. “I’ve got plenty,” he said. “I went to the bank yesterday and took out a thousand.”

“Really?” Kitty said surprised. “Do we need that much? We’ve got several credit cards if we see anything we want to buy ashore, and practically everything on the ship’s paid for.”

“I know, but I always like to have some extra cash on hand for an emergency. You never know when it’s going to come in handy.”

“I guess,” Kitty said.

So Clem paid the bill and they left the restaurant. There were still no Red Caps to be found, but again they managed to roll the heavy bags across the lobby and up another escalator to the street. When they came outside to 8th Avenue they saw a long line of people under the portico waiting for cabs.

“I hope we don’t have to wait too long,” Kitty said, glancing at her watch. “It’s already after two.”

“The ship doesn’t sail til four, does it?”

“No, but embarkation starts at one-thirty, and we’ve still got to get to the terminal.”

“What terminal’s that?” a soft voice said, close to her ear.

Kitty turned and saw a slender, light-skinned black—little more than a boy really—standing right beside her. She didn’t know where he’d come from, but he was wearing freshly pressed jeans and a polo shirt with a Ralph Lauren logo, and he had the whitest teeth she’d ever seen.

“Where you nice folks heading?” he asked with a smile the angels would have envied.

“The passenger terminal at West 55th Street and 12th Avenue,” Kitty heard herself replying.

“And I bet you’d like a cab, right? Follow me.”

He picked up both their big bags in one swift motion and dashed out into the street. After a second Kitty and Clem grabbed their overnight bags, which had been resting at their feet, and followed. The young man was going so fast they almost had to run to keep up.

“How can he carry both those heavy things?” Kitty asked. “He doesn’t look very strong.”

“Oh, these street kids are tougher than they look,” Clem said. He was panting a little as they raced after the boy. “How much do you think I ought to give him? Five bucks okay?”

“Ten sounds better. You said yourself those bags weigh a ton.” As she spoke she saw another young man approaching up the street. This one was a little older and not as good looking as the boy carrying the bags, but they obviously knew each other.

“Yo Rudy,” the newcomer said, a wide grin creasing his face. He put up a hand and hailed a cab.

The cab slowed down, pulled over to the curb, and stopped. The driver, a small, wiry man with a gold tooth in front, got out when he saw the bags and opened the trunk.

The boys hoisted the bags into the trunk while the driver turned to Kitty. “Where to, Missy?” he asked.

She gave him the address of the terminal. “Do you know where that is?”

“Sure, Missy, no problem. Please to enter?” The little man opened the cab door with a flourish, then hopped back into the driver’s seat.

Kitty paused, her hand on the door frame, waiting for Clem to tip the boys. She watched as he opened his wallet.
“Here, I’ve got something for you fellows,” Clem said as he flipped through the pile of hundreds in his wallet. “I know there’s a ten in here someplace.”

“Don’t worry about it, Pops.” The good-looking one called Rudy reached out, quicker than the eye could fathom, and snatched the entire pile of bills out of Clem’s wallet. “This’ll do just fine, and my friend and I sure want to thank you.”

It took Clem a moment to comprehend what had happened. Then, “Hey!” he yelled. “What do you think you’re doing?”

At which the other young man shoved Clem roughly back against the side of the cab. “We’re relieving you of some of your bread, you stupid motherfucker. We need it worse than you.”

“But, hey,” Rudy said, “no hard feelings, huh?” He gave an exaggerated wink, then the two of them turned and scampered off up the street. In a matter of seconds they’d been swallowed up by the crowd.

Apr 16, 2010

As Long As You Need Me

Yes, there are times when it is nice to know we are needed. I would think authors would want to know this more then anyone else...well, maybe actors would too. Where would we be if readers did not want our books or books at all? To be needed by our peers, family, fans and readers is very important. I doubt there is a person on earth who would disagree with that statement.

I took a little break from reading, writing, and enjoying this wonderful weather we're having to peek at my book on Amazon.com. You remember the name of it but just in case; "As Long As He Needs Me" was published on June 22, 2009. Oh my, that was almost a year ago; where has the time gone? Anyway, the book has received eleven reviews. I am proud of and thankful for each one of them.

I can't say it is or has been a best seller but I can say it has been read and that is why I write to begin with. I plan to continue writing for as long as I'm able because I enjoy it; not for the numbers sold or the fame that follows but for the thrill of it. You know, they say if you have two best friends in the world you've got something to feel good about. As long as I can bring enjoyment and entertainment to one person with my books then that too is something to feel good about.

Mar 8, 2010

Honesty is the Best Policy

Call me cynical or call me eccentric but at times I enjoy reading the reviews written by others about my book. Oh how that sounds...self centered? I assure you that this is not the reason why I venture over to where my book is sold to read. I find that it provides a sense of realism for me. I enjoy reading what the readers think and more importantly feel about my books. If I discover that they are feeling the emotions in which I wrote the book then I am elated!

I know that not everyone who reads a book will like or connect with my book. To be honest, I enjoy these reviews as well. What feelings and/or thoughts did the story provoke in these readers? Can I use this insightful information? Of course, an author writes for their fans, friends, family and readers to a certain degree. How the readers feel and what they think are important things to authors.

Mind you, I have my own style and the stories I write are mine as well but the joy comes not only in completing the story but sharing it with all of you; which makes the reviews prepared by others all the more important to me. It is an interesting line we authors walk between writing our own story yet maintaining contact with our readers and fans. It is a line I gladly walk.

What else do I see in a review? I see honesty. I know that some will sugar coat some of their thoughts; however, the feelings that drive the review cannot be covered or hidden. This is refreshing to me. I like to think that I write with honesty. I know my work is fiction but the feelings are real, the situations are real (even though at times built up a little) and my desire to develop a truly enjoyable work is very real.

I want to thank all of you who have written a review for my book. I am simply overjoyed by the positive words said about it and me.

Feb 17, 2010

Sometimes the Story is Right in Front of You

I am often asked where I found the inspiration for my book "As Long As He Needs Me" and how I selected the setting for it. To be honest, I did not find it as much as it found me. You see, the premise of the book is about a married couple who go on a cruise for vacation. During the cruise some tough situations arise that bring tension and problems they thought hidden in their marriage to the surface. As the reader gets deeper into the story they see the strain these things have on the marriage. Will the marriage survive? I can't tell you that, you'll just have to read the book.

I had been married for thirty five plus years so I have experienced the ups and downs of marriage. I have observed my friends in their marriage and I can tell you, I learned that at face value any marriage can look....well, perfect but there is, most of the time, something lurking underneath that the couple must handle privately. Don't get me wrong, getting and being married is a wonderful thing but it is not always a bed of roses. While writing my book I drew upon these experiences and observations.

The setting is another instance of drawing upon my memories of the past. My husband took me on a cruise some years ago along the coast of Canada, which happens to be the same cruise in the book. I remember it very vividly from my pictures and thoughts. I am the type of person that journals constantly; a habit that has served me well with my writing.

The point is this; life presents us with a vivid tapestry of experiences, memories, people and places of which we can add to our writing. What better way to ensure the realism and believability then to write about something we know firsthand?

Jan 18, 2010

Blog Talk Radio Interview

Tomorrow night, January 19th, at 9:00 eastern standard time I will be interviewed on Blog Talk Radio! I am very excited about this as we will be discussing my book "As Long as He Needs Me" and other items about the craft of writing.

I invite all of you to join me for this as I would enjoy hearing your thoughts.

If you don't know how to get to "Author's Articulating," I've included a link. Just follow it over and have a great time with Jo-Anne and I.

See you there.

Nov 13, 2009

My Newest Release - As Long as He Needs Me



They Thought They Were Getting a Vacation. Their Marriage Might Not Survive It.

In honor of their thirty-fifth wedding anniversary, Kitty and Clem Johanssen set off on what's supposed to be a dream vacation: a gracious cruise up the East Coast from New York to Montreal. But in a hectic rush to embark, Clem foolishly loses his cash to a couple of street swindlers. Unbeknownst to Kitty, the incident sets off a profound introspection of Clem's weaknesses, regrets, and mortality - amplified by the sudden appearance of his old war buddy-turned-politician, T. McCollough Boyle, during a shore excursion. As Clem grows more distant throughout the trip, Kitty falls in with an attractive - and mysterious - Englishman named Toby Knight, who offers everything Clem doesn't: grace, charm and hopefulness. Now, the slowly smoldering confrontations of the last three decades - the deep-seated resentments, half-buried insecurities and burning passions - will surface in a confrontation so powerful it will test the limits of the couple's love.

At once unsettling and compassionate, As Long as He Needs Me is a psychological novel of faith, memory, love and the unyielding supremacy of time.